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2022 is pretty much officially in the books now.

Fandom and hobby wise there was nothing that really exploded into my life the way other things had done previously. The last time I was ultra into something was Disco Elysium, which has been in the rear view mirror for a while now. I still was super into OWL, and enjoyed this season a lot despite its many problems, which is good because next season is already looking to be a tire fire. I didn't play much of the game this year though. The move to "Overwatch 2" killed the enthusiasm of almost all of my friends, who stopped playing completely, and the introduction of a battle pass and the removal of the offtank position, aka the position I usually liked to play, means I barely care to play myself. On top of that the balance changes they made to tanks to make 5v5 viable has completely broken all of the arcade modes. People just lock as many hogs as they can and it's the most boring shit. Still like watching others play though.

What I've been playing the most lately is probably Valheim. My solo game stalled out a little because corpse runs at the higher zones suck assssssss solo, but at about that same time the game got an update with the mistlands and all my friends who quit Overwatch picked up Valheim again and we've been having a good time with that. We started a new world and in fact finally got to the mistlands yesterday after spending an interminable amount of time looking for the plains boss. We're going in unspoiled so it's been fun seeing the new enemies and mechanics and food and such. With the exception of the man-sized ticks. I really do not like the man-sized ticks.

According to steam the game I played the most this year was Lost Ark. An impressive feat considering I quit it maybe 6 months ago. It's that much of a time suck. Valheim comes after that, and then Hades, at 7% of playtime. I ended up playing a new game and trying to see how quick I could beat Hades. The first try I got him down in 14 runs and the second I got him in 4, which I'm very pleased with.

Steam gives you a little wrapup for the year, and it includes a graph of how much of what you played when, but I don't know if it's random chance or what but it managed to pick all the same color for my most played games, so it's just a big crowd of blue.

graph of games played over the year

Last year I made a little list of things that I would like to get done. Here's what I put down:

Finish all the VNs in the BLM bundle. I'm about halfway through after two years and want to pick up the pace. I thought I might finish this year and then dropped the ball completely.
Post a fic. I never finish anything so one fic a year is about par for the course for me.
Read my Japanese light novel adaptation of Les Mis. This is a goal I have set for like... 12 years straight or something but SERIOUSLY THIS IS THE YEAR I'M GONNA DO IT.
Put out a twine game. Again. I never finish anything so this is a wash about as soon as I speak it into being.
Collect some stamps. I want to pick up some stamps from out of the country!
Fill out my legendkeeper project and convert my old Bigass Fantasyland Challenge off of Gaiaonline finally, jeesus.

Of all of these, I only hit one, which was to pick up some interesting stamps from out of the US. I had someone send me a postcard from Ukraine with the Russian Warship Go Fuck Yourself stamp as a thank you for donating to the defense fund, and managed to scrounge some cool stamps at some estate sales for nothing, so horray, a success!

The other things, which take more work and dedication I barely was able to work on. I am very close to finishing the BLM bundle though, and I'm hoping next year is the year. I didn't post a single fic. In fact, I think I wrote less this year than I ever have in my entire life. I don't know what it is but I have felt entirely drained of all creative juices for a while now. Only got a few more pages into Les Mis. And again my Japanese studies dropped to 0 in the latter half of this year, largely due to work suddenly being full tilt again, but also because of OWL taking up all of my spare time. The twine thing moved two inches forward and I have a draft of an email I meant to send in like April or something crazy like that still sitting around but that also got completely subsumed by stress. And I didn't look at the legendkeeper stuff. =s

Well, my problem has always been with prioritizing. I once desperately went to the school psychologists cause I was pretty certain by then I had ADHD and wanted to stop feeling like I was on the verge of a mental breakdown all school year long and the psych was like it just sounds like normal school stress lol. But I know for a fact if I feel like I have more than one thing that I need to do at a time my life falls apart, so maybe making these lists is not the best idea for me. When I stick to the fandom stuff I don't mind so much when I drop the ball, but there are also real life things that I've needed to do and none of those got done either, which is a much bigger problem.

One thing I did more or less keep up this year was charting time spent. I also kept a list of books read, and got to 6 this year, which is two less than last year and the year before, so RIP.