I've proved to myself that I'm a sloth.

[got_quiet]

For almost three months now I've been actually consistently keeping track of the time that I spend between 7 pm and midnight every single day. I do this by making a little chart in what was once a more ambitious bullet journal but now is just a little not book for this and keeping an eye on my bank balance. The chart is neat. It tells me that I still spend so much fucking time playing video games or just faffing about on the internet. In February I spent 95 hours faffing around with games and web shit. That's compared to 8.5 hours spent studying!!!! and 15 in various productive things (which includes stuff like going to bed early and taking showers.) If I even just cut out ten hours a month from that number I'd be able to double the amount of studying I do! Or maybe I would be able to read a book more than once every few months.

But it's a hard habit to break. I'm going to try to bring that number down for next month but honestly I'm not trying too hard, haha. I'm not off to a good start in March.

I was thinking I'd scan the pages and put the graphs up here but it turns out the mild cream color of the paper in this notebook confuses the hell out of the scanner and I ended up with very washed out images. I can fix that by sticking a strip of actually white paper next to the scan but I'm so lazy... Besides, I'm sure a visual representation of just how much I played Disco Elysium last month is interesting to no one but me.

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I'm still playing Octopath Traveler. I went from thinking it was ok, to thinking it was kind of trash when I hit Hanaat's story and got stonewalled at almost every chapter 2, to thinking it's ok again after finally beating a chapter 2 boss and fiddling with the mechanics some more. I really do enjoy the mechanics in this game even though the stories continue to bore me.

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Another new thing I'm doing is taking paper scrap home from work. We produce so much paper waste and it drives me nuts. I'm one of those people who feels awful whenever I throw out a sheet of paper that has not been used on both sides, and we very often produce these half-page slips that are one sided and get tossed after their function is over. So I am bringing home piles of them and are using them when I am doing my anki drills to practice my Kanji on. So far this has worked out really well! If I don't study a lot I will get flooded with paper so it is an incentive to use the stuff up, and since the paper is already scrap I don't feel bad about wasting good paper on just writing the same word over and over again. It's fixed some sort of mental hurdle I had so now I'm studying more, but my habit is to get bursts of productivity and then collapses into laziness again when the novelty wears off, so we'll see if this increased study productivity lasts.

Comments

[got_quiet]

I think I'm still close to dropping it, but I can easily play it while paying attention to other things, which is nice. It's kind of replaced Stardew Valley for my go-to mindless activity at the moment.

For now studying is fun and relaxing, since I have no deadlines or tests or anything. And I'm way to lazy to keep pushing if it stops being fun, haha.

[churi]

ah, well, I certainly wouldn't blame you! it's weird to me how games like that end up so popular while being really underwhelming in one important aspect or another. I feel like that sort of thing is a big reason I'm so into indie games now. especially when it comes to RPGs. not that every indie RPG is amazing, but of all the ones I've played that were talked about, they've all been quite good.

[got_quiet]

Yeah, I feel like at least with indy games I can trust that they're going to try something interesting, so I can expect something kind of new (not always though). It's curious how the bigger the project the easier it is to slide into mediocrity in one aspect or another. I maybe it's just a preference thing. I'm not sure.