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Medical care in this country is so broken. I got some email telling me it's time for a checkup, and I can do it this hybrid way where I fill out an internet survey first and then there's followup by a person. It warns you that this costs money, but it said that it took my insurance, so I figured ok, I guess this is a thing I should do.
They make you fill out this form which is like, how old are you, how much do you weigh, do you remember your last blood pressure check, do you need a HIV test, etc. All absolutely basic stuff. And at the end it's like, thanks, that'll be 350 fucking dollars lol. 350 entire bucks to tell a survey I don't get enough exercise. Now, I do have insurance, but it does not tell you if your insurance actually covers this bullshit and it doesn't give you the cost of the service until the very end, so it's not like anyone can make an informed decision on whether or not it's worth it to roll the dice. And I think my insurance does cover the service but when I saw that number I still became murderous with rage. This country is so broken. And this isn't even for the fucking follow up, in which someone actually has to do something. Fuck this shit.
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Anyway, I finished reading Teckla. Spoilers below, but it's an old book so...
( Spoilery Review )
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In HSR news, I am fuming that there's not a single male 5-star in this rotation. I want to roll for Moze, but there is no pity for 4 stars and I don't want to waste my jade on the ladies. As much as I like them, as a F2P I can't afford them if I want to go all in for when the guys pop up. So I used my free 10-pull of Feixiao and just got Asta. *weep*
I am however enjoying this patch's side story. The Belabogians are still my favorite cast (yes, more than Penacony) and Luka was in my roster for a long time. HSR's writing also feels much stronger with their smaller, encapsulated storylines. I haven't finished the tournament, but I figure I'll get there in a couple of more days. And then it's time to see how bad the Apocalyptic Shadow is.
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I've been trying to write a few fic for the Fandom Gift Basket, but it's just not happening. I can't get my brain to discard all the other shit I have going on and focus. And I'm not finding any good hooks to get my dumbass brain zoned in. I was able to write 2 gifts for the last one so I feel bummed that I'm not doing my part better this time. I'll keep on trying I guess. (Also I know some people hate it when people complain about their own writing, in which case, fair warning, that's all I fucking do when I talk about writing. It's suffering.)
As I was trying to get something down tonight I was thinking about my life back in high school, when I was writing thousands of words every day, simply due to the fact that my school was trash, I was bored to the point of mental break for 8 hours a day, and all I had to keep myself from screaming in frustration was a pen and a notebook. I don't miss those days, because again, school bored me so much that I swear to god it legitimately traumatized me, but boy does being trapped in a 0 stimulus environment for 8 hours a day, 5 days a week, provide an opportunity for a certain degree of creativity. Now whenever I sit down all I can think about is the 100s of things that I need to get done, and the consequences of not doing them is no longer a 0 and a teacher saying they are concerned I'm not living up to my potential, lol.
They make you fill out this form which is like, how old are you, how much do you weigh, do you remember your last blood pressure check, do you need a HIV test, etc. All absolutely basic stuff. And at the end it's like, thanks, that'll be 350 fucking dollars lol. 350 entire bucks to tell a survey I don't get enough exercise. Now, I do have insurance, but it does not tell you if your insurance actually covers this bullshit and it doesn't give you the cost of the service until the very end, so it's not like anyone can make an informed decision on whether or not it's worth it to roll the dice. And I think my insurance does cover the service but when I saw that number I still became murderous with rage. This country is so broken. And this isn't even for the fucking follow up, in which someone actually has to do something. Fuck this shit.
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Anyway, I finished reading Teckla. Spoilers below, but it's an old book so...
( Spoilery Review )
*
In HSR news, I am fuming that there's not a single male 5-star in this rotation. I want to roll for Moze, but there is no pity for 4 stars and I don't want to waste my jade on the ladies. As much as I like them, as a F2P I can't afford them if I want to go all in for when the guys pop up. So I used my free 10-pull of Feixiao and just got Asta. *weep*
I am however enjoying this patch's side story. The Belabogians are still my favorite cast (yes, more than Penacony) and Luka was in my roster for a long time. HSR's writing also feels much stronger with their smaller, encapsulated storylines. I haven't finished the tournament, but I figure I'll get there in a couple of more days. And then it's time to see how bad the Apocalyptic Shadow is.
*
I've been trying to write a few fic for the Fandom Gift Basket, but it's just not happening. I can't get my brain to discard all the other shit I have going on and focus. And I'm not finding any good hooks to get my dumbass brain zoned in. I was able to write 2 gifts for the last one so I feel bummed that I'm not doing my part better this time. I'll keep on trying I guess. (Also I know some people hate it when people complain about their own writing, in which case, fair warning, that's all I fucking do when I talk about writing. It's suffering.)
As I was trying to get something down tonight I was thinking about my life back in high school, when I was writing thousands of words every day, simply due to the fact that my school was trash, I was bored to the point of mental break for 8 hours a day, and all I had to keep myself from screaming in frustration was a pen and a notebook. I don't miss those days, because again, school bored me so much that I swear to god it legitimately traumatized me, but boy does being trapped in a 0 stimulus environment for 8 hours a day, 5 days a week, provide an opportunity for a certain degree of creativity. Now whenever I sit down all I can think about is the 100s of things that I need to get done, and the consequences of not doing them is no longer a 0 and a teacher saying they are concerned I'm not living up to my potential, lol.
