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[got_quiet]

Today I spent most of my evening cleaning up 10+ year old fic that I wrote for the Inception kink meme to get it onto Ao3. I've been lazy about archiving the stuff I wrote before Ao3 and wrote almost nothing after it became the de facto method of posting, so my account is barren, and after I lost my hard drive a number of years back it looks like I also lost all of the WiPs that I had been working on previously, with the exception of a couple of things I thought were good enough to go through more effort to preserve. I'm kind of down about a couple of them. One that I can't find (A fic about Arthur being cursed with cumsprites)  I liked a lot but I don't think there is any recovering it unless it turns up on a CD miraculously. The little bit I did post on the kink meme is there, but I had twice as much written. Eurgh.

There's another fic in particular where, if I had finished it, I feel is one of the few really good things I've ever written. But I started it during a unique time in my life when I had literally nothing else to do but think about writing (I was trapped on a mountain, basically) and while that time was one of the most creatively fruitful of my life, it ended before I finished the fic, and once I got back to the distractions of school and the internet, I just couldn't keep going. Every year or so I hit this melancholic moment where I think to myself, I need to finish this thing, and go back and read it, and don't add a single word to it. I kind of want to put it on the Ao3 even though it is barely half done, but also don't want to do that because it feels like admitting defeat.

I'm not sure why I'm thinking about fic so much lately. I haven't written anything in so long. I can't really get a sentence out anymore. Nothing has really changed on that front recently but I'm frustrated about it now for some reason.

A more open ended fest, dick_or_treat, is starting next month, so maybe I will try to commit to posting at least something for it. IDK how to get my focus back though!

 

My reading has slowed down a bit. I hit a book I didn't like so much, The Marrow Thieves.

I ended up not getting very far with this book in the 20 days that I had to read it. I have my limits with YA, and reliving the misery of Hatchet appears to be well beyond them. I'm not sure if the story changes any, but 27% in and it was all very basic survivalist stuff. The characters feel extremely thin. I'd read maybe a chapter, nothing would have happened, and I'd put it down. The worldbuilding is semi interesting as a post-apocalypse setting told from the Native American perspective, but all of that is so distant from what is actually happening in the story, which is hunting, walking through the woods, setting up camp, etc. I might keep picking at it up until we talk about it at the book club but I'm not going to be enthusiastic about it. I've also yet to see what makes this qualify as queer content. The protagonist appears to be a guy who immediately gets a crush on the first interesting girl that shows up. Maybe something comes out later in the book about that.

I was supposed to have finished Genesis of Misery today for club but never started it. I was too busy re-reading The Collared Knight, which started out as a meme fic and then became a self-pub. It's interesting to me how one's perspective of fiction can change when you read it all in one sitting instead of in spread out, short installments. As meme fic it was great. As a published work it has its rough spots, but I still liked it. It's an M/M/M spoils of war slave fic, and one of the characters, Ralston, is my type. He's got a bit of an ugly face, and a prickly demeanor, and a violent past, but also is a good person with a soft and considerate nature. There's a bunch of D/s stuff in there too, which I liked for the most part. The jump between Farnesse wanting to strangle Ralston to death and enthusiastically consenting to sub is rather sudden, but hey, it suits the porn logic driving most of the character development. It's been a long time since I read this and I'm not done yet, but iirc pretty much the entire second half is just sex. There is a little political maneuvering too though.

And then book two of the Whyborne and Griffon books came off hold so I'm just going to read that one now. I enjoy the two leads a lot, I like the author's style, and mysteries are low key my favorite genre.

 

Played some Trine for the first time cause my friend (actually she's my sister in law as of this weekend!!!) was hankering for some co-op. I never knew how puzzle focused it was. It took a while to figure out the mechanics, and then the camera didn't really know what to do with three players going different ways so things were a little janky, but actually even despite some of the issues it was fun and a different sort of game than I usually play.

 

Comments

[autumndaze]

Good luck with the clean up, and whatever you decide for your WIP <3 I used to regularly go through to edit my first big fic on ff.net (and later Ao3 when I moved it over), but I haven't done it in a while. It's probably in need of the tune-up.

[vegetablearian]

I'm sorry you lost all your data, that must have been awful! Good luck with finishing/finding/posting your fics, I hope you are able to write again soon!

I used to play Trine, I'd forgotten about it until you mentioned it. I never finished it, maybe 'cause I was playing it single player and it's a bit much juggling them all? Have you been playing it any more since? :)

[got_quiet]

We only played Trine that one time. We might pick it up again but probably only when we're super bored. I didn't think about what the single player experience might be like and now that I am thinking about it the juggling does seem to be a bit much.